(by Daniel R. Jones)
Every human is born with a mind-palace.
Well-kept, clean-swept, fastidiously organized. When it comes time to retrieve an idea, they walk through hallways of doors, each arranged in some methodical alpha-numeric sequence. Upon reaching the right room, they scan metal cabinets, open the drawer they need, thumb through the file-folders until they find the words they wish to write. In this way, they always have the right words to say.
When I was born, the doctors stood in semi-circle, confused by the CT scan that hung on the wall. Where my mind palace should’ve been, there was nothing to see.
Mine had sunk to somewhere deeper in the brain; somewhere less stable- the amygdala.
And what should’ve been a palace was instead a thicket of trees.
So, when I’m tasked with finding the words to say, I take to the trees without so much as a map to guide me. I amble around through thistles and brambles, looking for a sugar maple that I can tap.
The words don’t come gushing forth all at once. Rather, it’s a drip, drip, drip, slow as…well, molasses, as the thoughts freeze and thaw. It is not at all consistent.
After some four, maybe five months, my pail is filled.
I hack down the selfsame sap-producing maples and feed them to the fire, boiling buckets of sap over the open flame.
This converts thought-sap to syrup at a ratio of 40 gallons to 1.
After the foraging through the thorns and the cuts on my arms and the rips through my sleeves;
after the poison oak spreads and there’s a hitch in my step from the long hike and axe-wielding;
after the woods around me have been reduced to smoldering embers just to produce this:
I hold in my hands, my sticky, resin-stained hands, a piece of conscious concentrate: something that can be so essentially saccharine and sappy that it ceases to be so.
Bearing little semblance to sap, it becomes something else altogether.
Then, having drunk deep of this syrup, I pick up spade and seedling, knowing the next batch won’t be ready for another 50 years.
I write because words are the labor, and the reward.
because in the Scriptures, God Himself identifies as “the Word.”
Because words are both the mystery and the revelation.